I'm Taking My Heart Back

Lately I've been acutely aware of how similar we all are. Faced with life on a day-to-day experience, we all innately have the same issues and problems.

No one is immune to the negatives, and all of us face the same demons on a day-to-day level. For some of us, each of these plights comes on stronger and louder. Everyone faces the same plights of loneliness, isolation, fear, insecurity and that deep-rooted pain. No one is impervious to these experiences.

I am discovering lately, that we are all very much alike in our struggles. No matter what your background, upbringing, and home life as a child or other circumstances that brought you to this place. In reality, we all have the same dark as we have light.

I've come to realize, no matter where we all started from we are all very similar. I've become more tolerant of others shortcomings, and I've become more accepting of my mistakes.

Today, I begin the journey to forgive myself for the mistakes I've made. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I've begun the journey to stop isolating myself, and begin forging new connections. Some of these are with new friends. And, I'm fixing the mistakes I've made with friends and family, whether or not I was right, I've decided to accept my part.

I have found myself recently in great inner pain, and justified in my attempt to remove myself from my feelings. I've put my foot down. I'm taking my heart back.

This inner darkness is now acknowledged. It is a dark force that lies in all of us. I see this inside of me and know that everyone has this plight.

I'm not afraid of my dark side anymore. I face each issue with a clear mind. I'm taking action on my mistakes, taking inventory of my issues and tackling them.

I am no different than anyone else. Well, I'm a fabulous fuckin' female, a tour de force….let's face it there is no one on this earth like me….. but I'm also realizing that I am shy, withdrawn, alone, and have many demons in my closet just like everyone else does.